Leaving my baby with a stranger

Monday will be Johnny's first babysitting experience with someone other than Grandma. I'm becoming increasing nervous. How will the pickiest baby on the plant manage with a stranger? How will she deal with a baby that refuses to sleep, throws tantrums and has super human climbing abilities? This is going to be the longest 2 hours of my life.

My mother has abandoned me. She left this morning taking my nanny, I mean thirteen year old sister, with her to New Jersey. There is no return date. Sob. My 84 year old, great aunt is ill. Mom doesn’t want to send her to a home. She will nurse her to health or…not.

I know I’m being selfish but how will I manage without her? How will Johnny?

I found a wonderful 16 year old girl who has four younger siblings to baby sit while I attend class. She won’t love him like grandma does though. Gosh, I hope she doesn’t quit after the first night.

I have to somehow figure out how to get the kids picked up from school at 3:30, fight like mad to get out of the parking lot, drive clear across town to the swimming pool, get the three big kids out of their uniforms into the swimsuits and in the water by four, get the babies back in the car, pick up the babysitter who lives in the opposite direction, drop her and the boys off at home and make it to class before five. No problem. This is the class that every second counts. If I miss five minutes I could be lost for the rest of the period.

I feel abandoned. Mom usually meets me in the parking lot at the pool. She gets them in their suits, watches the babies, drives everyone home, and feeds them dinner when I’m at school. She also has us over for dinner weekly, baby-sits while I shop, study and just need a break. What am I going to do without her? Whaaaa!

Thank goodness Coach is willing to drive the big kids home. I know the sitter couldn’t handle the five of them.

I’m so glad I signed up for the Wednesday lab when dh is home. I think I’d have to drop out if I had to leave him for four hours.

I’m so damn anxious. I wish it were Tuesday.